Listen to me, Watch me, Hear my thoughts...

2006-04-28T01:23:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE BLOG...
i have moved but i'll still be retaining this space. don't bother checking cos i dOubt there'll be anymore uPdates coming :)

2006-04-22T14:36:00.000+08:00

i wanna BREAK FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tUesdAy's mY dAy!!! LAST PAPER!!!!!!

2006-04-19T13:36:00.000+08:00

come lets go out to play!!!! (taken during me n baby's jurong birdpark date :p)

2006-03-13T10:21:00.000+08:00

prom prom! those were the days...

2006-03-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

check pulse: little
check breathing: faint

i'm 3/4 dead already...my dead-o-meter has kinda peaked a new height again...i finally stole these few mins to return to my blogspace :X sometimes, life's like a killer; the difference is that it kills u slowly, while the killer who assassinates does it short and sweet!

so dear lovely frens of mine, i noe this yr's our big year, mostly celebrating our 21st!! i oTang u pretties n handsomes, sorry but i'll do something (gift/card) when i have more personal time...

somehow i just don't get it on certain issues with nie, i feel like i'm learning quite alot of ideal situations, handing in ideal lesson plans tt require at least a total of up to 12 hours of writing one. i just dun geddit! i mean when i go sch n teach, it's not liek i got so much time to write such pieces :O|

i'm way too tired, it's TIRINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! maybe i shud pay the sHrink (psychiatrist) clinic in nie a visit :(

2006-02-22T12:30:00.000+08:00

http://www.religioustolerance.org/rajneesh.htm

haf a read on this new "religion" who claims not to be but is in fact a combi of (i quote)"elements from Hinduism, Jainism, Zen Buddhism, Taoism, Christianity, ancient Greek philosophy, many other religious and philosophic traditions, humanistic psychology, new forms of therapy and meditation, etc." some stuffs in this world truely appauls me...

no wonder the bible says we're living in the end times...
nothing much to comment, people who have eyes to see will be able to discern for themselves.

i had a good laugh on some article which osho-ians have typed which was asking: "has Jesus every laughed"

haha! happy attaining "enlightenment" peeps...

2006-02-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

El shaddai, el shaddai,
El-elyon na adonia,
Age to age you’re still the same,
By the power of the name.
El shaddai, el shaddai,
Erkamka na adonai,
We will praise and lift you high,
El shaddai.

Through your love and through the ram,
You saved the son of abraham;
Through the power of your hand,
Turned the sea into dry land.
To the outcast on her knees,
You were the God who really sees,
And by your might,
You set your children free.

El shaddai, el shaddai,
El-elyon na adonia,
Age to age you’re still the same,
By the power of the name.
El shaddai, el shaddai,
Erkamka na adonai,
We will praise and lift you high,
El shaddai.

Through the years you’ve made it clear,
That the time of christ was near,
Though the people couldn’t see
What messiah ought to be.
Though your word contained the plan,
They just could not understand
Your most awesome work was done
Through the frailty of your son.

El shaddai, el shaddai,
El-elyon na adonai,
Age to age you’re still the same,
By the power of the name.
El shaddai, el shaddai,
Erkamka na adonai,
I will praise yo ’till I die,
El shaddai.

El shaddai, el shaddai,
El-elyon na adonai,
Age to age you’re still the same,
By the power of the name.
El shaddai, el shaddai,
Erkamka na adonai,
I will praise you ’till I die.
El shaddai

2006-02-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

lApeaChesaNdcrEam@pAcificcOffeecOmpanydAy

lapkopi-ing in an airconditioned environment feels good! :) tOps the uPpers when u're sitting on a comfy BIG couch alone, with your laptop that has internet wireless access just in front of you, your peaches and creme drink on yr right hand side, and just do your work.

i just had to steal this moment of my busy schedule to type out ali'l of how i'm feeling! GREAT! execept for a stuffynose which i acquired thru' my wonderful mommy who spread those germs to me.......

after dis chapt of bio lesson, i started wondering..
is my flu-bug caused by bacteria or viruses? thosee eekY unseen-by-my-naked eyes bugs has indeed caused me much inconvenience, expecially during sleeping time, aches all over my body! BUGGERS...

everyone just seems to be leaving singapore. germie just left, pOk's leaving today too! the cherished moments us (5princesses) spend are just so precious! i can even foresee when we're married and with kids and still meeting up, chatting, laughing over ourselves, talking to pOk's parents, eating desserts, enjoying mexicAn food and so much more. of cos work may come in the way, so will other committments like individual families, but i know we'll make time for each other :) *cheers to everlasting friendships* sometimes i really don't wish to step into the "real world" where i've gotta open my small eyes to look at all the big things around me; still i know there's no running and hiding from it, i'm BONDED TO THE GOVT! NO CHOICE...

what's your perspective on stepping into this real world?
maybe some of you have already been in the workforce for a/few/some/many years...do you recall that period where you have somehow been brought into that transitional period?

haha! come to think of it, i'm my choice i've made that now i'm bonded...so it's not a no choice situation :) so i shall learn to appreciate my career more-and-more, better-and-better with each step i proceed forward. that's the way we're moving...

P O S I T I V E L Y! :p

my motivation mr d.paul will be out from camp for afew hours to be with me...i miss him dearly!!!! i just wana hug him so tightly in my arms right now!!! *big grin*

oKie, back to prepare for my sunDaySchooL lesson tmr!!!! heee

2006-02-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

wad a way to usher in the "dog year" of the lunar calendar this 2006...to go with the flOw, i've been working like a dOg! *applause* i wondered who came up with this phrase that claims the characteristic of a doggie to be hardworking. is it really true? if it is...then i guess i can't deny, i'm a dog.

rest - seems to be like a craving or something i could only steal once in awhile, i feel like an overworked machine about to go berzerk. but, i know i have to fOcUs! i seriously need to get in shApe; i've been neglecting my body, face, mind, soul and everything...

no more moisturizing of my face and body
no more exercising
no more occasional brain teasers
few quiet time with my Lord, almost equivalent to none
insufficient water intake
stressful outbursts of mass food intake
unsettled work
projects floating all over my head
no baby by my side...
busy
busy busy
i seriously don't feel human; a "living" zombie would be the closest expression as to what i've been the past weeks/month

MY PUNEY EYES HAVE NEVER BEEN SMALLER THAN NOW...

sounds really lamentish huh! still, i really need to find a corner, a space, just somewhere i'm allowed to rant just this little, and not allowing these emotions n all to get the better of my during sch hours.

on the lighter side, sis's operation went well...she's in a super big cast that resembles a tAiwan sAusagE x 1000000 times...and currently staying in NUH's Class A ward for this coming week....
n i've managed to sit thru 2 hrs of bio lessons and understanding what the prOf was teaching today! tt was a real big insulin, haha! it's really trying to sit for
2 hrs lecture
then having 1 hr break
and then continuously sit for another 4 hours of lectures (and still be concentrating)

really thAnk God for placing good friends ard me...i think if not bcos i haf their company, i would haf consecutively "zAo" = skip all monday lessons since sch began...esp when 3.30-5.30pm is bio lecture and i've not understood the content prOf taught for 3 consecutive lects (which amts to 6 hrs of bio lect...which means ENDLESS AMT OF FACTS AND INFORMATION)

knowing i'm sucha dorry, i'm just so tHankfUl i din give up going for lectures.

i'm sure everyone has to go thru' their pile of dUng - sch, work, nat'l service, relationships, family, friendships, health probs...

despite all that i'm going thru, i know i am blessed with

1) God who loves me unconditionally
2) my baby who loves me so so much
3) friends who stand by one another
4) friends whom i know may not be 24/7 by my side, not in my current institute of education, but they are concerned for me

so, we'll ultimately PULL THROUGH ya!!! i do not know abt u reading this, but i'm times as such, i'd really haf to say...

"I can do everything through HIM (Jesus) who gives me strength." -phil 4:13-

2006-02-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

i like thAi songs! tt's one discovery i found out bout myself. nv particularly mentioned (and remembered) that i liked it until i spoke to germ n khoo tt day when we went ktv, haha! den khoo said i mentioned it on our 1st trip to thaiLand.

i guess every now and then we all should haf some self-discoveries, it really makes us know ourselves better? haha!! on music, i guess i'm quite person who enjoys a variety (besides english n chinese), even in languages that i don't understand...let's see...kOrEaN, thAi, jAp, cAntOnesE, hOkkiEn, engLish, cHinEse, occasionally i listen to malay n indian musiC too! whahahaha! *self amazement*

i seriously don't like days when i'm having my periOd!! it's bad, i always have to pOp pills to relieve the muscle crAmPz. Thank God my lessons were 830-1030am today :) i hope tmr's bAinian sessiOn at pOk's hse won't be spOilt by crampies

Question: wOuld u cry bcOs u miSs someoNe verY much?

is it jUst me beiNg a more emOtioNally weak girL? haha
last niGht something weird happened. haha!! i cRied oN my bAby for no pArticulAr reaSon besides pUrely miSsiNg him. mayBe it was an accumulation of waiting for his call as i saw time tick away...9pm...10pm...11pm...and then almost midnight i received bAby's call. before i could utter a word, tears welled and overflowed, lol!

2006-01-28T11:34:00.000+08:00

YAY YAY YAY!!!! It's lost but nOw it'S fOunD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AmeN!!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2006-01-28T10:10:00.000+08:00

tt smarty is so in hOt sOup..baby smsed me saying lotsa units were activated to find it and if they dun find it by today, it'll be on the pRess *gosH*

it's just overnight something happened and now the whole things is in a mEsS. i think he killed his own future...he's probably traumatised and worried dead seeing everyone running around to find the rifle cos he was too tired n left it somewhere outfield.

even shihan who is some sergeant from infantry regiment oso diO activated last night. *oh man oH mAn* pls dun let it lAnd in some hands of the wicked. for tt poor guy who practised irresponsibility for just that moment, his consequences is equated as follows...

gOvt pUnishMent + miLitAry pUnishMent = ?

2006-01-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

i miss my baby.....

2006-01-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

HOTTEST FRESHEST not bAbes...but NEWS from sisPeC! :( the whole up-to-down of this voCation has been ACTIVATED to search for a rifle...(sergeant major, clerk, man, blahblah) cos some smart aLec left his "wife/gf" equivalent in outfield...

3 coys from sispec began their search since 6am today...was supposed to end at 6pm, but now timing has been extEnded tiLL 12midnight. n some other vocations have been activated...the area which i think i im not suppsoed to disclose has been cordoNed off. tmr 430am will be baby's coy turn to search. Colonel personally went down to camp to tell them if rifle can't be found by tmr, then no more chinese new year for them ALL. *oh man*

was really pissed off for quite long, but i guess we don't really have much of a choice. i really miss baby...today we were supposed to celebrate his 21st birthday with da poLy bunCha peePz; due to unforseen n uncalculated circumstances, it been cancelled! guess i can't be too selfish to just look into my own wants/needs...seeing the big picture, i'm actually quite worried someone might have taken it. it'll really pose a social threat by then!

from another perspective, i Thank God tt our army's quite efficient in handling such matters. altho it would be unfair for those who did not lose it (equivalent to WHOLE SISPEC - 1 man), they're dOing their best to ensure the returns of this weapon (which maybe of cause to citizens) n Thank God too, that 1 man is not my baby d.paul. i pray that the rifle will be found tmr!

it will. Believe and Conceive, it will be Achieved!

dear couples that often quarrel over the slightest trivial matters, please treasure yr time with yr lOved ones. Absence makes the heart gRow fonder, that is so for me.

2006-01-26T16:18:00.000+08:00

the fallen

2006-01-23T23:53:00.001+08:00

of friends

2006-01-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

of people..

2006-01-23T11:47:00.000+08:00

curren mood: dead bored!!!!!!! :S Switched off
current location: LT1 in nie
current content: Skills and process in Primary sciEnce

sometimes i wonder if switching off is a choice or a natural response when we're sitting in boring lectures :)

2006-01-21T11:42:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord Jesus, pls remove the veil covered uPon these people's eyes, bring them from dArkness to Light, unveil the trUth before theiR eyes i prAy! i pRay tt tHey will reAlizE only a man withOut Sin can die and beAR the sins and transGressIons of all upOn Himself; and not becauSe men who are siNners can be "possessed" by deitiEs in ceremoNiAlz and rituAls to use weaPons to injure themselves tt iLLnessEs will disaPpear, that it will appease the Gods...

Saviour on a hill
Dying for my shame
Could this be true
Defies the world I see
Yet this is all my heart
Was longing for
To know You my Lord
To know You more

You deserve
You deserve
You deserve all the praise

The heavens wept for You
The earth cried out
Could He be the One
For You so loved the world
You gave Your only son
To say I love you so
Oh how I love you so

Hallelujah to the King
Hallelujah we will sing forever

And all humanity
Aches to find this beautiful love
You give
We come to You again
To offer up our lives
To worship You alone
To worship You alone

fOr You ALONE hAve aLreAdy pAid the hiGheSt prIce tO sAve the sOuls of aLL mEn...that oUr sOuls haVe beEn mAde for EteRniTy and oUr lives iN tHiS wOrlD aRe tEmpOrAl. In the days of the fuTuRe, Lord, cOme iN yOur GLORY and pOwEr thaT one dAy every tOngUe wiLL cOnfess yOu aRe God and oNe dAy eVery kNee wiLL bOw befOre yOu

2006-01-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

i just wanna be in my cosy corner...just you and me

2006-01-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

can you comprehend how it feels? I HATE BEING FAT...BUT I CAN'T EAT SLIMMING PILLS COS I GOT IRRITABLE BOWEL SYNDROME...I CAN'T RUN OR DO VIGOROUS SPORTS FOR LONG COS MY STOMACH WILL HURT...I CAN'T EAT TOO LITTLE COS I GOT DAMN BAD GASTRIC PROBLEMS! and i got a friggin dad tt acts like an aLarm clock tt keeps telling me i'M fat, i need to blahblahblah!!! THEN WHAT THEN WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I hATe It i HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stop pressurizing me, just let me hide in my corner where no one can see the fat and ugly me :'(

2006-01-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

Dad will u stop complaining i'm fat... :( it's depressing me!!! i'm already cutting down my food n i got gastric!!!!!!!!!!!! do u want me to die of starvation? ARGH!

i noe i'm damn fat la, Wat the heCk! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!STOP IT!

2006-01-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

sigh, had gastric pains since yesterday afternoon...sometimes i really don't get it!! :( i've been eating normal meals man!!!!! ARGH...but this attack really gave me a hell-A-loAd of a tiMe...

endure thru classes the whole day yesterday
pAin didn't go away even at night
lots of tossing n turning in bed n lAck of sleep of cos the paiN

i superly detests gAstRic pAiNz!! SUCKS BIG TIME........................

ARGH!!!! i sound like a chiLdiSh giRl rAnting cOmplAinTs n YES I AM! RAHRAHRAHRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm a sulKy girl :(

2006-01-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

okies...i think i'm having pre back to school syndRome...feels v suCky :( bUt i guess im not entitled to cOmpLain cos next tiMe i'll be the TEACHER n no lOnger the sTudent, haha! wad an exchange of rOles!!! suddenly i feel like i've aged :X i guess a little, haha! havent even reached certified aDulthOod age yet, tt'll be in december :p

all tHat fUn countdOwn to 2006 in pOkie's hOme just seemed like yEstErdAy...i still can't get out of hoLidAy mood! haha! esp all that fUn me baby wen rox n pOk were having together with sAm's good frens and her mUmmy! a very coSy new year countdown with a small number of people tt reallY had me n baby eNjOyiNg! the lAughterS, hUgs, sMiles, kiSsEs, pHotOgRAph sessiOns, DisnEy mOnoPolY, bBq :p

pOk's pOpo (grandma) was missing though, heee! she was in mAlaysiA celebratiNg 05-06 transition with her oLd frEns! cOol hUh! :) she always called us "huAi peNg yOu" meaning naughty frens, haha! i dunno why...LOL apparently pOk says she calls sAm's frnes that too, so i guess it's not meant to be offensive. hOnestly, i always took it as something fUnny, her granny's really cUte la! wished pOpO was staying with me too...n uNcle (Mr Pok) was missing tooo! hE's enjOying life in syDney!! LOL! making aUnty jealoUs..haha! awww, i was so excited aBt meetiNg hiM n aUnty! but well, aUntY's gOod enough too, hehe! esp her cOnversation with lAnce!!! haha!!!! really goT us ALL at the table listening attentively for quite abit, hehe!

bAck to sCh affAirs: tHank God tHo! cos not all lessons begin this week sO i have tHursday oFF but wednesday's really a WASTE of time! travel to sch 1hr 20mins to attend a 1hr tutorial...*blehs* shOoT me pLzzz

anyways baby boOkediN again...n i'm missinG him so muCh already. it's 1 mOre week tO endure tHru' I CAN DO IT! at least i'll have 5mins cHat tiMe with hiM every niGht cos he calls me sNeakiLy after his liGhts oUt :p *sweetsHapEs*

met baby's sec sCh bUds tOdAy!! kC gArriE aArOn cHiYu kiMsomething (i forgot) :p was quite a riDe to bishan! haha! this sHaoyE (meaning ricH yOung mAster) kC's driving skiLLs were faBuloUs! n sitting in his "spacEshiP" as mentioned by baby, was really comfY, not to mentiOn EXCITING! haha! for someone wHo drives iN USA, the road conditioNs are just much more different, lol! was belt uP alriGhtY!

kC - khong guAn biScuits buSiness oWner's gRandsOn
gArriE - whOse gf is Kee Lee, haha! fellow sCgS mate
aArOn - wHo woRe gaysHapes shirt wiTh babY today, haha! seems like i got competition *chuckles* haha!
cHiYu - who is gOing to aussie for piLOt tRainiNg, pRo or wad man!
KiM sOmethiNg - i'm really sorry i cOuldn't remember hiS naMe cos it sOunded v difficUlt to me :| he'S the one whoM i kept thiNking was aArOn after the first introdUctiOn, haha!

everY bOokiN dAy thO, baby gets the bLues, just as menTiOned in NigerAlis bLog tOdAY too...i oso dunno hOw to make him feel bEtter. guess it feels something like wHat im feeLing nOw? awake at 159aM frEakiNg oUt!?!?! haha! :( sometimes it just getS me oso cos tHis dOrAemOn lAdy here = me just aiN't as resOurcefuL in cReatiNg cHeeR ppLe up iDeas. alwyas been more of the weLfare kind of person, LOL! so i just used mY hEart n aLL that LoVe i have for bAby to trY to make hiM feel lEss mOody :) our jOurney to from ciTyhAll to booNlAy was a really heaRt warmiNg one. we din manage to get seAts so we just stAnd and listeNed to iPod.

beiNg in hiS arms (of cos not the pDa kind of hUg!) just made my heArt feel deePlY waRmed :D i just felt really lOved! fUzzy wUzzy feeliNg, haha! indescribable... i just wished tiMe would stAy STILL or be extended for a lOnger time...for awhile, it's like the whole train oNly consistS of botH of uS!
if only tiMe STOOD STILL right there and thEn, where i was loCked in hiS embRace...
of cos, in reality it cAn't! Still, i know that no mattEr wHat.. oUr loVeliNes will nv weAr off nor bReaK/snAp but tHey'll gRow stronger wiTh each pAssing day cos we hOld each oTher iN our hEartS! :) i love my baby d.pAul

2005-12-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

really missing baby very much! glad tt in few hrs time i'll be meeting him. sometimes i think it's really funny when people ask me how and when and what events took place tt brought us together. and after hearing, i believe only few are impressed. haha! but well, that's not the point. the point being, whAt he's been all along and where his heart lies, n i know for my baby, his heart's with me :)

walking out of a past takes courage and lots of time but i truely understand now what it means when "God shuts one door and another opens." why would a God who loves me so much shortchange me? :) indeed, not all partners whom often think we are attached to or cannot live without are the perfect life partners for us. cos only He knows the Best for us and Gives the Best to us.

in the past, i thot aaron was the one for me, and he probably was my everything...the breakuP was hard to accept. i made wrong decisions, i've made wrong accusations. for a period of time, it jst seemed like everything was against me, but Thank God for jOsie (my counsellor), Thank God for lots of good friends ard me who helped see me through, Thank God for just being tt wOnderfuL Lord; changing my heart condition and showing me a different perspective n tHanKs also to aaron for listening to that vOice within, that Voice from God that told him to let go of what seemed so dear to him at that time. because he let go, i experienced a walk which i've nv been through before; a walk with God.

i learnt tt experiencing His love way exceeds experiencing the lOve any other earthly being could provide for me, be it my parents, siblings or partner. actually i really want to tell marcUs tt suffocating jAcqUeline to such an extent is really causing her to breakdOwn and himself to degenerate day by day.

the prize he's gain for freeing jAc from his chains is a frieNdshiP for life and really letting her be human just like the prize of having Jesus to take control of my brokenness after having to let go, brought me many gains. priceless friendshiPs here on earth and a siBliNg for eternity...
utlimately, absolutely nothing, except for the experiences i've had truely belongs to me

sometimes letting go is really worth the while...
it is no wonder even when Jesus knew he was to be crucified that day, he did not run nor hide but faced the reality.

the price for my salvation
the price for my deliverance
the price for my healing
was cOndemnAtion sHame and Jesus bLood shed on calVary.

today i can face reality only because i've seen reality.

i am no saint
but a sinner who fails sometimes
fear at times
who slips sometimes
makes the wrong decisions at times
who runs out of track sometimes
but
i have an invisible hAnd gUiding me all aLong...

even in trials i know i can never stray far, cos His Love keeps me back in track...

Thank You Jesus

2005-12-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

marcus please stop harrassing jaCquline...........when will u ever give up? when will u wake uP? sigh

2005-12-29T14:31:00.000+08:00

我的美丽人生,因为有你而存在:D

2005-12-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

what a christmAs celebration! i'm currently on a diet now, haha! don't want to be 65kg all my life, n worse before getting married and pregnancy! :S den my little kids in school will complain me as a fat teacher *arghh, NIGHTMARiSH*

having cRaMpiES today! twas' terribLe!!! :( i had to pOp afew piNk panaDoLs, n take hOt food inclUding hot water the wHole day!! on days as such, a fEmaLe would prob feel tHat a gUnsHot ain't as deadly as this aGoNy of having to sHift lOts of different positioNs to sooth the muscles and having end up curled in a weird prawnY shape! -_-||

i don't know how i'm gonna go to school and teach in future with such cramp conditions, somebody tell me? cos it happens every month and if i do go through this every month on a weekday, i'm DEAD, prob get sacked in no time!

christmas celebrations this year was more of gatherings among friends and family. the most fUn one was in lyNn's place :) we sang cHrisTmas soNgs and had gift exchange, haha! surprisingly, we're all diStant cOusins in name but yet we had so much fUn together!

2005-12-24T00:50:00.000+08:00

yay! baby will be out tmr ard am hr past noon, i'm all excited and really happy to have him back :) i really can't wait for it...prepared baby's special present today then i realised i FORGOT to write him a card!!! can u beat that?! who else can be as sotong as me?
leave yr name n hp number, we'll be frineds den can check out each other's blurrness, haha!

dear God, please let this fire within me relight again this cHristmAs :) all i want for Christmas = Your presence with me and my baby dpaul

2005-12-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

hah! im back for another post :0) tmr i'm gonna get anewly painted wall!!! which means my room or rather whole house is gonna stink like nobody's business! all the best to me! :X

my first day in sparklight's really interesting. i helped out teacher elsie, and was being introduced as teacher claudia! the p3 p4 kids were really quite lovely. girls were more shy, guys were like super spontaneous! haha! they did lesson review though, so it was abit different from normal lessons. told sis barbra tt i'm not ready to teach yet, but i'm more than ready to help out! :) need preparation to teach, i'm not ready yet.

then attended spdlight. was supposed to go with mich but she had headache in the end, so din come church. attended with my ex-cell members...felt really welcomed by them the MOST, more than any other spddlighter i spoke to today. lots of people whom i just wish to name them "familiar faces", just started questioning me abt whether i'm attending spdlight camp? why am i not attending camp? why am i not attending spdlight?! gosh, i felt like i had an interrogation session. i just don't want to, i'm not interested and i don't think i need to give in details to each tiM toM hUrry that tries to dig in news.

the best thing is their reaction after hearing im no longer in speedlight and am not going camp..."ohh, ic..." then they give u the pitiful look, like as if yr whole life's in a mess. or u're a flop and facing lots of problems, backsliding or something of that sort. "please....wake up your idea!" *rolls my eyeballs*

spdlite svc was okie, i was kinda sedated...felt like i was going to sleep any moment. i kept myself awake by reminding that i can see on brother sam, but i cannot sleep on God! n it's God's word sam is preaching. that kept me going! altho i was quite zonked out. the praise worship session put up by the musicians n choir peeps was quite nice...

in short, i just felt like i was watching a concert, which i felt was quite redundant...i mean, wouldn't it be better if we stood up to praise n worship n sing to God? i was looking ard the congregation as i was clapping n singing along, people around just sat there n looked at the stage. the good singing, splendid dancing, interesting instruments and all. by the last 2-3 songs, i was getting really bored. i really wanted to stand up.

the environment was not much different...cell members sms-ing, passing notes, talking, reading comics, resting heads on the chair like they were watching some boring movie...many just looked more punked and dressed v hippily. i felt like service was just an avenue for them to come, attend, die die oso must sit through, and after svc go makan, go out with friends and all tt...then i began wondering, why do we go to attend a service?

i asked myself "why i even attended today's spdlite svc?"

2005-12-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

birthday bliss - part 1 of diadear's surprise...beautiful roses

2005-12-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

birthday bliss - dinner at "da pAolo"s :) top class service, posh design, yummylicious food, the best companion

2005-12-17T00:47:00.000+08:00

birthday bliss - part 2 of diadear's surprise

2005-12-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

birthday bliss - after dinner shots

2005-12-15T01:29:00.000+08:00

an empty bowl of yuMMyliciOus sharksfiN soUp.....use yr crEativity to iMagine the ingredients....u can do it! ;)

2005-12-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

yay! im home im home!! :D feels good to be home once again...i realized i'm abit of a homesick kinda person, altho cRazy shopping turns me on, but still have this uRge to be hOme, back in singapore once again!

had a v v v extremely FUN n CRAZY trip! 4 FULL DAYS of shopping...my legs are still intAct tho!! pictures will be up real soon...i think i have enough earrings to open a SHOP! bot lots of things - skirts, bags, shoes, belts, lingerie! so, dear friends, everytime i'm out with ya all, PLS PLS...if i'm ever tempted, pls tell me to "wAke uP yOur iDeA la!" haha!

10 things i realized after going on this bangkok trip
1) i missed my baby so much, i nv wanna ever be apart from him again ;P
2) even guys who are almost 12yrs old cannot go shopping, guys just suck at shopping
3) i've forgiven my uncle whom i bore hatred for over 10yrs
4) without autoroaming connection, this world will be in a pathetic state
5) bangkok's bts which is = singapore's mrt is super convenient!
6) hotel beds also HAVE bedbugs
7) siam paragon is a new shopping center and it's ENORMOUSLY BIG! can compare with bLuewatErs shopping mall in uK and it's approx 3 - 4 times the size of takashimaya
8) shopping alone can be really fUn!! :D
9) i tAsTed tHe BEST SHARKS FIN ever, in GENEROUS PORTIONs, and cHeap price by bangkOk's chinatOwn roadside...n i'm so going back there again!!
bangkok's food really ZAN! *yummy*
10) thai massage for 2hours seriOusly rejUvlnates a person!!!

2005-12-10T14:45:00.000+08:00

taking a break from tonight until 14th dec :D goodbye singapore, hello bangkok! hello shopping craze and FREAks!!!!!!!!! whahahaha :D will be back to update on my sPlendid birthday celebration with baby d.paUl and wonderful tiMe with poLymates

2005-12-08T09:03:00.000+08:00

yay! exciting day ahead w/o much sleep...i hope i'll make it through! haha! 1 word to describe my sleeping pattern = sucks

read some BBC news thing tt "A former Australian prime minister has called Singapore a "rogue Chinese port" for ignoring appeals to save a drug smuggler from the death penalty. "

not gonna get political or anywhere close to that, but seriOusly, i just don't understand why people eXpect to commit an oFFence in another country, esp. knowing sgp's sucha strict cOuntry on such rules and the consequeNces to face then when they've been cAught den start appealing, getting hiGh poLiticS people to save tHem...and then when the appeal fails, call us nAmes...
gOsh, i just don't get it!

i'm glad siNgapore made it's sTaNd aNd stooD by it! not tt i'm sadist and wanna see people hUng but people have been FOREWARNED. as juNjie's song goes "hEEd it oR iGnoRe it!" u heed the warnings, THANK GOD, u igNore it, then FACE THE CONSEQUENCES.

it's like a parallel to what the bible sAys thaT we're living in the end tiMes with many sigNs so eviDent, yet peOple chooSe to igNore. it is nowoNder that the time aNd hOur of tHe coMing of Christ is uNkNown; coMing like a tHief...the woRds have been spoken and the warning has been maDe. i belieVe so that because during that time, God will NOT make compromises just as sgP has nOt made compromise for the aUssiE dRug offEnder.

we always thiNk that there's time to tUrn back sOon..bUt when reality STRIKES it's dEadly blow uPon us, wHo can we really bLaMe?

i dOn't enjoy JJ's songs only because his music sounds gOod or wadeVa but for 1 reasOn i am suRe...the lyRics remiNd me of what days, what tiMe eRa, what peRiod i'm livinG in, the persPective that tHis pAradiSe we're living in is bUt tEmporal, it'll all "pAss aNd fAde aWay"

you think it's perfect
everything is so fine
wait till you look it through your spiritual eyes
you think it's nice
but please open you eyes
this place is but a beautifuL sty
you want it i want it
everything's a want
we lose it then we say it's for fun
you think it's funny what i'm saying is corny
it's a warning
heed it or ignore it

2005-12-06T18:53:00.000+08:00

then we say byebye to marcHe

2005-12-06T18:52:00.000+08:00

aPronish looking jO puts on her 2 gifts ;)

2005-12-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

after countless of layers and arduOusly ripping them off sCotchtape by scOtchtApe...jO spots the gift!

2005-12-06T18:49:00.002+08:00

shirley poNdering on what exciting gift is lying below...

2005-12-06T18:49:00.001+08:00

gOsh...when will this ever finish

2005-12-06T18:49:00.000+08:00

tUrned out to be SOMEMORE LAYERS

2005-12-06T18:47:00.000+08:00

jO happily opening her present, not realizing the mOnstEr's behind her

2005-12-06T18:45:00.000+08:00

santOs representing jo's victOry in tHe bAttlE

2005-12-06T18:44:00.000+08:00

shifu tries to escape from jo's clutches

2005-12-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

uLtimately, we all know wHo will win, cos she's jOanna! haha!

2005-12-06T18:42:00.001+08:00

first round of bAttle (shifu wins)

2005-12-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

tHe birthdAY girL scReaming for help

2005-12-06T18:41:00.000+08:00

followed by tHe maincOurse

2005-12-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

PAPARAZZI SHOTS (can blackmail jO with this pictUre, haha! of kelviN the cheehOng feeing jOjO)

2005-12-06T18:39:00.001+08:00

KILLER SHOTS

2005-12-06T18:39:00.000+08:00

aLL babEs shot...then......

2005-12-06T18:38:00.000+08:00

followed by aNother -tiN n bUdi-

2005-12-06T18:36:00.001+08:00

and sOme couple sHots

2005-12-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

then some best girfriends shot! -tiN, shiRz, jO-

2005-12-06T18:32:00.000+08:00

we begin with simple pictures

2005-12-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

who is that girl i see, sTariNg straight bAck at me..? and yoUng kiddO ryAn peekiNg for...my armpiT?

2005-12-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

celebrated my bday at grandma's house yesterday night :) had a good time there! due to bedbugs n all tt grew, quite abit of the furniture's gone from this good ole' hOme i once lived and grew up in! lots of memories. i guess apart from the physical things that were once before my eyes, the fOnd memories of creating "hOmes" with bLanKets and piLLows n cUshiOns, pOlice n tHieF, pEpsi cOla 123, hOpscoTch etc etc remains in my hEaRt~

had 2 relatives from hOngkOng who came to visit popo too! haha! can't rem how to address them, but i remember their faces. when i went to hK they brought us around. yUps!

yesterday night's sTar awarDs 2005 only award i felt, really touched me was - the pretty laDy who acted as rUaNMiaNmiAn in tOngxinyuAn! she received the bEst nEwcOmer awaRd. she tHankyOu speeCH was siMple. her first wOrds when she sTood iN front of the miCropHone after receiving the aWard was "GaN XiE zU!"

the first award winner whom i've heard of who Thanked God, the one who gAve provisiOn and oppOrtunities, above all other people! me and sis and jean replied "AmEn!"

how many people wHo have received fAme, mEdals, tRophies, aWarDs, pRaiSe and all give the gLoRy to God? fEw, reaLLy fEw! :)

it's really sOmething coMpared to just making aUdience laugh, listening to people thank blahblahblah, saYing how much they sYmpatHize with fAns pockets for calling and then trying to tell them, remember to keep supporting me and calling for me kind of stuff; missing out the uLtiMate Jehovah Jireh, The Provider of all Good things!

2005-12-03T15:51:00.000+08:00

celebrating jOjO's 21st birthday toonight :p got her present ALL WRAPPED UP...n i mean totally wrapped with horrdendous layers of papers that assures her a load of long time removing them, heeee *evillaugh* well, i'm sure birthdays are meant to be filled with some element of fUn! :)

with the sAme kind of excitement liNed up, pRiNcEss tAn is turning 20 in 6 days time! hee! wonderfuL :) from that day onwards, there wouldn't be a 1 in front but a 2! *GRInZ* honestly, i've always been the girl who wanted to grow up real quickly, u noe like when i was 16, i was dreaming of 21? haha! gosh! like what kenny used to call me, *dYsfUncTiOnAl* but wHo careS! haha! the jOys of birtHdAys aiN't abt lookiNg at the nUmberS cOnsecutivelY increasing yeAr by year BUT it's aBt celebRatiNg this day with lOved ones (frens family all included) and most importAntly, the one who creaTed mE :)

no God = no me = no birthday
BUT with
a cReAtiVe God cOmes ---> uNiquE cLaudiA ---> wHo is tHen turNinG 20!

some exciting events liNed up this week

4th dec (sunday) - celebrating with paternal family
6th dec (tuesday) - NIE bowling competition and bAby's POP! say bYebYe to recuit SJ LEE, heLLo to pRivAte pAul
8th dec (thuRsday) - celebRatioN with my buNchA fantAstic polymAtes, heee
9th dec (friDaY) - me aNd bAby's day!!!
10th dec (sAtuRdAY) - byebye siNgaPore, hEllO bAngkOk! whaha!!

lEt's hOpe there aRe more to come, i'M oNe gReedY li'l pRiNcEss eh! tt's why i'm growing fatter mah

*laughs out loud*

2005-12-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

wonderfUl memOries :)

2005-12-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

To: All Single Student Teachers

The attached event is a real good deal with lots of fun ! Just $10 - Buy 1 get 1 free Movie Nite package ie a dinner, film show and goodie bag !

All eligible single student teachers are encouraged to get the package early and invite his/her friend to come along and have an enjoyable evening!

GOOD DEAL! I WANNA GO...but SINGLES ONLY!
there goes the deal *pOof*

2005-12-01T12:56:00.000+08:00

a visit into wardrobe...

2005-11-25T10:01:00.000+08:00

1) i'm super-ly excited to have baby back home tonight!! :D YIPPEEs!!

2) i pray that sis will have a safe trip to and fro pertH and have a fun fun fun time with her friends dere! :)

3) i Thank God for sis's contract that arrived 2 days ago! she coming nie liao lo~

tHat'S aLL for nOw...

2005-11-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. -Jeremiah 29:11-13- and He promise us that He'll be found by us! Amen!

2005-11-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

just want to Thank God for Nigel's PSLE results. 240 was his final marks, although somehow it's not up to expectations. i believe he knew beSt why he did not get hiS desired marKs.

mum and dad are fretting over where to place him and stuff, since his entrance to RI is nowhere reachable, not at least within the next 4 years..seems to me, that lots people close to my heart need God's direction. i pray that even though Nigel is not a christian, but the Lord will still guide him :)

baby - praying if it's God will to senD pAul to NS band

nigel, keefe, and isabella - praying for God to send them to the right secondary schools and for keefe and isabella to know and experience God through this period even though they may be young

people can advice and comment, encourage, support, slander, discourage, blahblahblah...some things others do will make a person feel good or bad, but an experience with God is P R I C E L E S S..

this experience with Christ reveals His reality in their lives. i don't know how to explain, we just got to be the ones to experience it!

2005-11-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

"surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life" -psalms 23:6- when we traverse the emotional minefield of painful memories, the Good Shepherd is with us on every difficult day...

2005-11-20T14:19:00.000+08:00

black cat with white horns, haha! wheee

2005-11-20T14:18:00.001+08:00

indiaN angel with hAlo, haha!

2005-11-20T14:18:00.000+08:00

yummy spread at soUp spoOn

2005-11-20T14:17:00.000+08:00

after the ride...haha! at science centre! yipee, so fun!

2005-11-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

first thing i wanna do tonight i really Thank God for my English Grammar results! :)
Despite all the anxiety and "rather last min preparation" due to my losing the English grammar file containing ALL my lecture notes, tutorials, quizzes and lecture slides printed and fiLed properly

was really a period God saw me through :) and Praise Him that i scored A- for my EngliSh exaM, which constitues 55% ;) Thank God for people who pRayed for me too and encouraged me :) although there are some "heartaches" within me which i do not wish to touch on...it'S really mY Lord Jesus that i'm LiVinG fOr, not tO plEase mEn but for my Lord...no matter what others say or react, i sHould not let them affect me cos' my fOcus is on Jesus!

it's really a big motivation for me, cos' i'll be doing my maths paper this friday :) really tRusting God for it! i'm aiming for a B grade at least, for this exams. even though i failed one qUiz. it's not going to discOurage me. cos although in that 1 test, i didn't fared well enough, my overall isn't v badly affected :D managed to patch the grades with another 3 tests :) and that failure was due to other reasons, not because i didn't know my work well enough

the third iS kindA liek a li'l jOke for everyone
happened while i was packing my stuffs to go upstairs after watching my tV programmes..

Dad: hey, why you don't help to discipline your younger brother?
Me: Huh? mE?
Dad: ya..your brother always listens to you mah..
Me: er...but
Dad: and beSides! yoUr brother lOoks liKe u tHe Most, plUs u are a tEaCher!
Me: HUH!?! *stares at my dad blankly* -_-|||

sigh...since when did the responsibility of disciplining my younger brother became miNe? sometimes i just don't get it, some forms of disciplinary actions HAVE TO BE TAKEN by parents and not sibLings...i don't really like the way they kinda sHirK the responsibility, directing it to me. besides, i'm still a student, trainee teacher.

i'm a girl who is a daughter
i'm a girl who is a student
i'm a girl, regarded as "half-mother/ baby sitter/ discipline mistress" to my brother
i'm a girl who is expected to listen to their "wise advices and words" and follow them
i'm a girl who is supposed to live up to their expectations
i'm a girl who slacks around and don't work hard
i'm a girl who, when achieved grades are deemed as undeserving to it or rather...it seems to them, "by Luck"

dear mum and dad...
although i know that i live for God...
sometimes i just wished you could encourage me. i'm really not as "useless" as what you think i am. whatever i've achieved, because of you both, i learnt that they come from God. they are blessings from Him, they are achieved through fAith, prAyers and trUst in Him.

i'm not always playing and living my life, enjoying myself and slacking around. i know my priorities and i do study for my exams and work haRd for my projects during sch academic tiMes and even the staying back in schools. i do put in my efforts.

mAybE jUst 1 fiNe dAy, yOu wiLL reAlizE thAt thiS sCrAtcHed, bRokEn aNd diM stAr cAn sHine...jUst liKe aLL tHe rEst of tHe sTars iN tHe sKy

2005-11-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

tomorrow marks the beginning of my revision for the mAthS exAm! DSM100!!! i'm determined to make this exAms good! hehe!

suffered another spiritual attack again. determined and confirmed the previous times of hearing people (who are my direct friends) talk in the so-called "sleep-state" and afterwhich unable to get out from that place is true! hmm..happened at 2+am when i was in shiFu's car, was feeling tired and he's hunGry so i asked him to go down and pAck some bRekO sandwich which he has been craving for, into the car...

i slept after he left...the usual thing to note was, he wasn't gone for long...those shitified attacks dun come when u're in deep sleep for long. oh well, then it seems in my "sleep-state", my sHifu came back into the car and it was in a weird state..the car was the same and all, i just couldn't really make out his face and when i tired to "wakeup" or like take a closer look i just couldn't, that was when i just kept struggling, forcing myslef to get up knowing i'm in yet another stuPid attack! i kept calling for jEsus until i oPened my eyes and "wOke-uP"..i looked beside me, and true enough, bAby wasn't there!

but there was this really sleepy sensation, i just couldn't overcome it..i tried to force myself to stay awake, just somehow my eyes just went off, they closed, and i knew that something was really wrong..it's a very very unusual feeling of tiredness, like when you suddenly got blackout and fAinted/collaPsed, just caN't fight it! then true enough, this time it became wOrse! and i just didn't uNdersTand why in my stUpidity that i DID NOT REBUKE THE SPIRIT...tt's the stupid pArt

but the "thiNg" left when bAby came into the cAr, it's liek i suddenly got out of the sTate...weird..

seeking for some aNswers to the cAuse of this thing..it's definitely not as simple as a nightmare or you're too tired

so

PRAY..

2005-11-11T13:18:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! :D one down one down! LAST PAPER to go and my chains shall be uNloCked as i sWiM along freEee wAters like..Eh *freeWiLLy*? haha! Thank God! not gonna bother if i did well or this or that, just want to ThaNk God for seeing me through this paper :) and that's aLL that mAtters! hehe! crappsy mood now, supposed to be in bed sleeping...

think my monthly "best friend" is coming for another visit which explains all my feeling tired and stuff..just that when i lie on the sofa or in bed, i just can't get to rest :( *bOohoO* but who cAres!

i can't wait for the exciting hOlidays to coMe!!! and mY LoVEly bAbes to return from oVerseAs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lalalalalalalala
just soMe coNfirmEd eveNts to take place after 18th november 2005 :p

1) some SciEnce excursiOn, haha!
2) tReat to hArrY pottEr movie and lUnch/diNNer from my yOungest uNcle, for all niecEs n nEphewS
3) gAthering with NIE babes LeecHiNg bAbe's new home (leeching's cooking for us) :)
4) KTV with kHoo n gErmie
5) KTV with mandY n bAbEs
6) MeetiNg SukkiE tAitAi
8) pEishAn's house gAtheriNg, wheee
9) Wendy's return from aUssie
10) Finally get to have 5pRiNcessEs rEuNioN
11) Baby yOutiAo's P-O-P
12)aFterwhich, 10 days bReak :D
13)HappY Birthday tO mE
14)Bangkok triP
15)MeRry Christmas

YAY!!!!!!!!!! HOLIDAYS QUICK COME QUICK QUICK QUICK!!!!

2005-11-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

i need to BUY TIME...any for sale??? please help

2005-11-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

can someone teach me abt soLar systEm? i just don't get the moons?! :(

9 planets
mercury
venus
earth
mars
jupiter
SATURN
URANUS
NEPTUNE
pluto

ARGH....i feel liek crashing my head against the wall, maybe in cOMa i can pSeuDo (=fakely) buy time...HAAHAH...dunno wad im talking man! CRAP CRAP!

2005-11-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

jOb 22:27

2005-11-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm...
God please help me for this sCienCe exAms
*desperate cry*

if you know how i've fared all these years for the subject science, you'd know i'm a sucker for it...

PSLE GRADE: C

SEC 2 FINAL EXAMS: 36/100

SEC 2 STREAMING: Single science (cos my sch only offered pure sciences and i landed in the last class)

O' levels: B3 (after spending tuition fees of $420 every month, from beginning of sec 3 all the way to end of sec 4)

this is sucha tEst to me, not really a tEst of abilitiEs, but teSt of my fAith! i've done my studying, just prAying and tRusting Jesus with my coMing science eXam this FridAy...

if only osmosis or diffusion of notes worked,
if only burning my notes and drinking them up worked,
if only cheating works without having to go against your conscience and integrity,
if only,
if only....

tHe TRUTH is...
nothing really heLps as much as prAying

2005-11-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

[spoken]
Now kids, hang on just a second before we start
You know there's a reason we are all here
In front of Grandma and Grandpa's Christmas tree
And if Trevor and E.P. would quit fighting long enough
And be real quiet
This little song might help ya understand

Long ago, in a stable, there was a baby being born
His parents were Joseph and Mary
And Joseph's big ole heart was torn
Cause he couldn't find a decent place
For Mary to have her child
But Mary said, it just seemed just right
And she blessed it with her smile

[chorus]
Cause what made it special was the baby in her arms
God sent Him down to give the world
A second chance for you and I
That's why we have Christmas at this time each year
It's the baby's birthday party that brings us so much cheer

[spoken]
Now kids, the presents that all of you exchange on Christmas
Represents the gifts that baby Jesus received the night He was born
He got all His presents from three wise men
Who followed a star
And walked a long, long way to the stable
So everytime you tear open one of your presents
Think about that baby and say
"Happy birthday Jesus
I'll open this one for You"

[chorus]

[spoken]
OK, all together now
"Happy Birthday Jesus
I'll open this one just for You"

Name: Happy Birthday Jesus (I'll Open This One for You)
Artist: Reba McEntire

just a set of lyrics i found online...getting really all so excited about CHRISTMAS!!! can harDly wait! haha! i'd even give my birtHday a miss, lol! well, i'm sure most people love to celebrate Christmas, with gifts, presents, decorations; all that lOve in the Air!

indEeD, all these gifts come because of the GREATEST gift Jesus Christ! all else above are mAterial gains but Him alone brings eternal liFe! :D the mOst expensive, pRecious gift, and it's free for whoever who wishes to kNow, reCeivE and bElievE in Him!

cElebrate this Christmas with meaniNg, knowing who Jesus Christ is!
He's the rEal reAson for thiS seAsoN! ;)

2005-11-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

after leaving a ministry, i encountered 3 types of people in spEedligHt

1) people who give u awkward stares

most of which are just people who don't bother much, when something big happens like you've disappeared for sometime, they think u've backslidden or something
when they coincidentally bump into you...they may try to ask you how u are now and stuff, often there would be a very long pause, like looking at each other and like dunno what to say or ask, but seems like you got to ask something for the sake of asking...
just makes me want to laugh

2) people who don't care two hoots

maybe for a period of time, they're good friends with you...go out, meet up, talk, play and stuff...they don't really bother much, even if it meant seeing you at the carporch, they don't smile, don't look at you, don't say hi...kinda like beautiful paper clothes? for awhile, seems v nice, then soon, they're good to go...and i mean into the biNs
haha! to me, i don't give a damn either :)

3) people who still cares and make time

despite busy schedules, they're concerned for you. honestly, they are probably the first few people that knows what's going on in my life...not really in detailed, but much more than the other 2 kinda mentioned above. we still make time for each other, and even though i've left the ministry and speedlight, we're still good friends/ friends...it's not really abt time and all, it's the foundation of friendship that has been built up

just want to take this time to Thank God for the friends i have in speedLight, just these few who showed me that there's much more than superficiality in FriEndshiPs there :)

1) michy
2) laopa
3) kenomando
4) chiU
5) ahshi
6) dawNie

my life in tP after taking part in so many activities and ccas and blahblah, taught me that, more friends needn't mean quality friends. but when i have quality friends, i don't need excess

2005-11-07T16:12:00.000+08:00

the world is falling into a D E E P S L E E P...

2005-11-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

HEADLINES ON WORLD NEWS TODAY....7th Novemeber 2005

Harry Potter's magic casts a spell over London

Tornadoes kill up to 20 US Midwest

Avian flu suspected as cause of bird deaths in Turkey

Five dead as Somali PM escapes convoy blast

US intelligence on Iraq-Qaeda ties 'intentionally misleading': report

these are but just 5 world news headlines after hurriCane Katrina, tSunami and wadeva...though they may seem like empty words, just news happening all over the world, becoming like nOrm in our lives...

i recalled that evening when mum was watching the news with me and she suddenly mentioned "why are all these (tian zai meaning disasters) happening?? i thought people were supposed to lead better lives after crossing over the milleNiuM...(if you recalled how the WORLD including myself celebrated the welcoMing of the miLLeniuM) there was sArs, then madCow disEase, then Bird fLu, then tSunami etc etc"

it's not just gonna be this, nor will it end here, for these are but just the beGinniNgs and...

THESE SIGNS ARE ALL POINTING TO THE COMING OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST! i really wonder when will people realize the facts and come to the Father who is merciful, lovinG and foRgiving in this time, before wRatH comes upon the world!

whether one chooses to believe or not, hAppenings of such have been written in the Book of Revelations in the Bible...

WAKE UP WAKE UP!!!!!!!!! WAKE UP PEOPLE!! don't fall into the deep sleep or turn your hearts away from the truth, lest you spend your eternity in the cOnsumEd FirE...

2005-11-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart

2005-11-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - cute doggie

2005-11-04T00:46:00.001+08:00

impressions of my heart - standing tall

2005-11-04T00:46:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - fishing for something; waiting for someone

2005-11-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - haha! i caught you!!! fake u one la...

2005-11-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - 3seconds to crying

2005-11-04T00:43:00.001+08:00

impressions of my heart - CHARGE!!!!!!! our future commander

2005-11-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - let's go and play!! :)

2005-11-04T00:42:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - enjoying fun moments of togetherness

2005-11-04T00:41:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - 4 layers captured...

2005-11-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - greenery effect

2005-11-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - lightened and brightened...

2005-11-04T00:38:00.001+08:00

impressions of my heart - sundown effect

2005-11-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - appreciating the little-est of creations of God; mr Ant

2005-11-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - a picture that depicts Jesus Christ Crucified for my transgressions

2005-11-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - though i may fall, still i will pick myself up...i will not give up!

2005-11-04T00:34:00.000+08:00

impressions of my heart - *i don't know how to describe this caption, i just love it very much*